Tonsil seems achey but again, I’ve prodded at it. I’m going with whatever is bilateral is normal. I found a few things I can push in and out of place and I’m honestly having a hard time distinguishing between normal anatomy and anything else. My neck feels achey but I don’t stop inspecting it so there’s that too. I prodded at the tonsil and more blood tinged saliva followed. Since then, my throat has been sore off and on. Then I cried and she told me to meditate or do yoga and said I should see an oral surgeon to talk about TMJ.

She seemed agitated by my response and said “well all you can do is call and try to have your CT moved up”. But my positive was before that, obviously. All subsequent paps have been neg, including the one I had in May. I’m not sure how many honestly but probably a half dozen or more. Said “why are you so worried about head and neck cancer?” “You don’t smoke, you’re not a heavy drinker.” Then under her breath said “or have had a lot of oral sex partners.” To that I replied, “yes, I have”.

Went back to PCP as wait for ENT is weeks. Again, I sort of have to “dig” under my jaw to find it. Can’t really decipher the size and also unsure if I’m in part touching a salivary gland? I feel something similar on the left side but doesn’t seem as big. The other one is just behind the angle of my jaw. But rubbery? How does one distinguish? How can one tell the difference between rubbery and hard? Seem to be pea sized. They are moveable, I guess, not sure I understand the terminology. Two are under jaw (bilateral) and have to sort of be “dug” out of the skin. Since then, I’ve discovered 2, possibly 3 nodes in my neck. I asked if she thought the tonsil should be biopsied, she said no. She said she would cancel it if it was going to give me more anxiety. I asked her if she felt that was necessary. Said she would order a neck CT since I still seemed worried. Mentioned my mild but persisting ear pain (it’s not constant but is daily), likely TMJ she said as no sign of infection. I mentioned bleeding (there was blood in my saliva after hitting the tonsil with the waterpik) and she said that wasn’t uncommon because it’s a vascular tissue. Also agreed right tonsil was larger but looked normal. She felt for nodes in neck, then scoped me. It’s certainly not huge and of normal color (as far as I can’t tell). I took a look in my throat and saw that my right tonsil is larger than the left. Dissatisfied, I made another ENT appointment. She gave me neck exercises and sent me home. Starting inspecting neck regularly and noticed some tightness in my muscle and pain when I applied pressure so I went to see PCP. Not every time I turned neck but often enough. It happened maybe a half dozen times a day. In May, I started experiencing this strange popping sensation in my neck when I turned my head to the left. Dentist did oral cancer screen and didn’t see anything on tongue of concern. I wasn’t experiencing any pain in the throat. In March I noticed some bumps on my tongue, went to ENT who scoped me, said he saw “pustules” on my tonsil and applied some pressure which causes some funky tasting stuff to be released into my throat. I’m also having some “odd” symptoms that I cannot find any explanation for and was wondering if anyone with a diagnosis has ever experienced them. I’m guilty of using google to diagnose symptoms but I’m also petrified at this point because I can’t find another reason for what I’m experiencing.

Popping hidden tonsil stones